Monday, June 8, 2009

My Near Death Experience

It was a regular day in April of 2007. I went out to food for Josie at Las Delicias. I ordered 2 red snapper meals with arroz amarillo (yellow rice) and 1 side of maduros and 1 side of tostones. I knew I was about eat well! The order was wrapped up well and I placed the bag on the floor of the passenger side of the car.

I started the car up, pulled out my iPod hit and shuffle. "Lovestoned/I Think She Knows" by Justin Timberlake starts blasting. I am ready to go. I pull out of the parking space and I make the turn on to Concord Place. It was pretty nice night. It was later in the evening. I make the next left on to Allen Street. I am driving down this street and there is no traffic then a black cat comes out of no where and I swerve...

I am not sure if anyone really knows the feeling of being in a vehicle when it turns over. It is almost like a roller coaster ride. This all happens very fast, but I was able to hear the car hit the tree. I hear myself scream "NO". Then the car flips

My life did not flash before my eyes, but I did think I was going to die. I am still in the car, upside down. My nose hurts from the airbag. I have my eyes closed because I run a pain diagnostic on myself. Legs check. Feet check. Arms Check. No blood I can feel. I open my eyes and I am truly upside down. I think to myself... "I cannot believe I just flipped this car." I can smell the food. Then I think..."Oh shit, I have a full tank of gas.." I unbuckle my seat belt and I crawl out of the car.

On my way out I see my new phone that I just got in 3 pieces (Phone, battery, cover). I stand up and I just look at the car. I see my iPod across the street. I pick that up and then a woman comes running out asking me if I was ok. She blabs about how she is a nurse and how I need to sit down. I can tell she is trying to check me for wounds. She mentions that she called 911. I put my phone back together and I call Josie.

I totaled that car. I just got that car a month prior. The rest of the night consisted of me going to the hospital for testing. I remember sitting on the gurney with both Josie and I crying because even then we knew that our marriage was in trouble. I still think about that day. I was off from work for a week because I was sore as hell. I think about how some of my friends did not call even though they knew what happened and I think about the one person I needed to call me...did.

I will always think about how I almost died 2 years ago. The police told me that if I had not had my seat belt on, I would not have made it. I am re-telling this because this I feel this is the closest I have ever come to death. It would have ended very quickly and then what? I thought about this yesterday. I told myself that I need to finally figure out what I want to do.

I am not staying in Syracuse. I have decided to finish my Masters and get out of here. The city is not for me. This job is not for me anymore. There is a glass ceiling over my head that I know I cannot crack. My mother is now 70 and my aunt is getting older and someone needs to look out for her. My nephew is getting bigger and I am tired of not getting to see Met games whenever I want. I miss New York City and I want to go back now! But, I need to do me. I need to get this degree.

P.S. Yes that is the car pictured above.


Brooke said...


I can't believe that! I'm so happy that you are okay and survived such an accident! I've been in car accidents before, and it's a terrifying I can only imagine what you felt like as you flipped over and was sitting upside down. Horrifying!

I'm so sorry that that happened to you, but it's such a reminder that tomorrow isn't promised to you.

I think a lot about the people that we've gone to school with that are no longer here - Conrad, Kevin, Brian, Felix...the list goes on. Young people...gone, just like that. And while they didn't pass away because of a car accident, it goes to show that when God wants you, He wants you.

God wanted you here. There is something De has planned for you, and you'll figure out what that is. Do you and make you happy. Tell the people you love that you love them everyday, and never take for granted that you'll have time to put off tomorrow what you can do today. Sometimes it takes tragic things like that to happen to make us realize how precious life is. I'll remember your story and reaffirm what I already know. Thanks for sharing that.

Annamaria said...

Although we never met you just made me cry (PREGNANCY HORMONES..LOL) I'm sooo glad that you came out ok (I wish death on no one..) even though your marriage didn't. I sincerely hope you find everything you want & deserve in life. AND let this be a reminder that live every day to the fullest & do what makes YOU happy!

Rameer said...

Amazing. I'm glad you made it. I never take today or tomorrow for granted - it only takes a second for us to be gone.

All we can do is live life to the fullest and appreciate the gift we've been given daily...

Jeri said...

i was gonna leave a comment here, but brooke said everything i was going to say =)


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